It’s amazing how different I feel about myself after just a couple of weeks of taking better care of myself. Eating better, working out, positive self-talk. The change can happen fast. I seem to swing inbetween beating myself up for bad choices, feeling guilty, and hating my body….and then being on cloud 9 because I’m treating myself right.
This also applies to my attitude during the workouts too. Those first couple of days back at it, when it gets hard, I’m so tempted to quit. To say “I can’t.” But once my mindset switches, I’m all “This is tough, but I can do it.” This morning at my workout group (I’m going on Wednesdays to work out with some friends), we were doing planks. 30 seconds, then 45 seconds, then a whole minute. By that last minute, I’m spent. I can’t hold it the whole time (yet). I want to quit. But instead, I give myself a second of rest and get back up. I fight for it.
But here’s the crazy part: those two girls- the worthless one that I hate and the fighter – both live inside me. They are the same person. The difference is my attitude. I seem to forget my worth because I’m treating myself in a worthless way. I don’t like that. And more than even losing weight, I’m hoping to finally hold onto my worth during this process. To see that I’m WAY more than those bad choices I beat myself up over. I’m more than failure and negativity- even on my worst days.
Last week at my workout group, we did crunches to this song…and it’s been with me ever since.
The days will come when you don’t have the strength
When all you hear is you’re not worth anything
Wondering if you ever could be loved
And if they truly saw your heart they’d see too much
You are made so much more than all of this
You are treasured, you are sacred, you are His
Take a listen, sweet friend. Take these words to heart. You’re worth more than whatever you’re struggling with. You’re beautiful. You’re made for more.