Brain Dump: Weight Loss Edition

Brain Dump: Weight Loss Edition

I have tons of thoughts swirling around in this old head of mine…mostly about my weight loss journey.  I’m just going to dump these thoughts out there.

  • Boot camp is hard.  My muscles ache.  It hurts to laugh. I went to bootcamp on Monday, and am still a little sore.  I want my body to catch up with my spirit! I’m ready to dive back in.
  • Food prep is hard.  It takes lots of time, effort, and dirty dishes to plan meals.
  • The scale makes me sad some days.  Like when I eat well, workout hard, and it doesn’t move.  The scale is a Mean Girl.
  • However, my scale also tells me my body fat percentage….which oddly enough is now considered “normal.”  A normal woman should have 21-33% body fat, and I’m in that range.  So technically, I’m “normal” in my body fat.  I guess I just have lots of muscle…because I sure don’t think I look “normal.” ha!
  • But according to weight charts and BMI charts, I’m at least 20 pounds overweight.
  • I know this is a life-long journey of health….but some days I’m so tired of counting calories, watching carbs, and making sure I workout enough.
  • Do naturally fit people think like this?  Surely not!
  • I know I’ve come a long way, but some days, all I see is the old, big Brittney staring at me in the mirror.
Me. 2009.  The biggest of my life.  I had just gotten engaged and was telling my sorority sisters about it
  • But some days, I see this girl:
December 2012.  Just finished running my first 5K. Smallest weight of my adult life.  Currently I’m 5 pounds heavier than that.
  •  I know there are plenty of measures of success besides the scale, but I want that number to drop!  I’m also taking measurements and watching my body fat %….and I know that each small change, each workout, and each good choice will have a payout….but it might not be on the scale.
  • Like most women, there are days I LOVE myself…and days I don’t really love myself.  I have to stop the negative self-talk and love myself.  And I’m working on that too.  I’m working on confidence regardless of size.  I mean, for crying out loud, I wore a bikini on our cruise in December! But then some days I wear a tank top and HATE my jiggly arms.  UGH.  Sarah (my boot camp teacher) is helping me tone up and tighten up…but much like Veruca Salt, I want it now.
  • I’m going to start re-reading Made to Crave.  My “Unglued” Bible study is over…so I’m going to revisit that book for some insight and Godly advice on this whole journey.

I know I’m SO much healthier than I used to be.  I know THAT is the important part.  But I can’t help but be vain….I want to look better.  Feel better about myself.  Maybe I’m crazy.  I’m trying to work on the crazy (and these thunder thighs) all at the same time.

If you are on this journey, I promise you aren’t alone. Find some friends who can encourage you and share in your struggles.  There are people all around you who understand.  I’m REALLY thankful to have some family, friends, and coworkers going through the same things so I don’t feel like I’m nuts all the time. 🙂


Comments

  1. Love this post Brit! Keep up the good work!

  2. You should be so proud of yourself! You have come so far it’s truly inspiring!

  3. Here from KK & totally relating to SO much of this. I had a baby 6 months ago and dont know if I’ll ever get my old body back, so losing the baby weight is in the front of my mind… until it gets overruled by concentrating on my baby and stuffing my face with whatever is close and easy, until finding time to exercise is overruled by finding time to shower. Etc. Etc. Etc. It’s all just lame excuses and at the same time I am SO SO tired of looking at my squishy body in the mirror.

    Whoa. Didn’t expect all that to come out. 😉
    Comment over! Haha
    -Hollie 🙂

    • Hey Hollie! Glad you commented! I haven’t had a baby yet….but I can imagine how hard this journey is compounded with that.

      My motto these days is just “one good choice at a time adds up.” Hang in there, girl. 🙂

      Thanks for reading!

  4. I am so glad you shared your heart on this subject, because in so many ways I feel the exact same way! I just hate that a number on a scale is something we as women obsess over, don’t you?

    I keep telling myself at some point, I’m going to just be happy and accept myself. I mean goodness, I’m not too far off from what I weighed when I got married 20 years ago. Why do I keep changing my goal and wanting that number to be smaller?

    You have done such a tremendous job, Britt! Your hard work, dedication and wise food choices has already paid off!!! You need to remind yourself that! Stop listening to all your crazy self talk and start looking at that DROP DEAD GORGEOUS WOMAN in the mirror! I ain’t got no ugly friends, honey! You are beautiful!!!!! I said so!!! And I am always right! *wink*

    I give you permission to have one “self doubt” day during the week, and the rest of the time I want you to look at yourself in the mirror and say, “Dang! I’m a HOTTIE!” Got it???

    Love you, babe!!! You are an inspiration!

  5. So encouraging! You looks amazing! You’ve done a great great job. I am just now starting back after baby #2 and its killing me. I like what you said about one good choice at a time adding up. I have now twice said NO to the oreos in my fridge and had a handful of grapes instead… seems small, but like you said, they add up… so for now I am going to say no again and go eat some more grapes to make my sweet tooth happy. Thanks for being so open and honest!!

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