So this week has been a doozy.
I had TONS of errands to run this week in preparation for a busy weekend (hosting a baby shower, trip out of town, baby shower on Sunday)….so I started Monday off running errands after work. I HATE the time change. I miss the sunshine. But whatever. I got home later than I wanted to Monday in the dark.
Then Tuesday happened. Gram went back to the hospital. New issues. She was lethargic and unresponsive…so mom called an ambulance. They were in the ER all day. I went up there at lunch (and took lunch to my parents) and only taught one Zumba class so I could take dad home (having a parent with Alzheimer’s makes stressful things difficult- so I tried to make mom’s life easier by taking Dad home).
Today, I spent lunch at the hospital feeding Gram. She was a bit better, but we still don’t know anything. I went by there this evening and she was back unresponsive again.
And Tyler is sick. And exhausted. And he wanted me to come home last night. But instead, I needed to go to church. I needed to pick up a check from a friend, some clothing items for a ministry project I’m heading up…and I needed Bible study. And then someone else wanted something from me. I sort of politely told them no. I didn’t have time. I didn’t want to put forth the energy. I couldn’t.
And I was talking to my amazing pastor’s wife after church. She is a wife, mother, caregiver to a handicapped child, and she is a busy woman. I was telling her I didn’t think I could handle it all…and I was disappointed that I said “no.” She gave me these wise words:
You can only do what you can do.
YES. So much yes. She gave me the grace to do what I can, and let the other stuff go. Take care of my family, myself, and my jobs. Do what my heart says is important. And let the other stuff be a firm “no.” It’s ok.