Two Steps Forward, One Step Back

Two Steps Forward, One Step Back

That’s exactly where I feel like I’m at with my health/weight.  I’m making strides in some areas. My fitness, namely.

I’m almost to my 300th 9Round workout, and I feel STRONG.  I am starting to re-re-re-re-train for a 5k and have been able to breeze through the timing of the runs since I’m in better cardio shape.  We had a pushup day at 9Round and I did 230 pushups during my 30 minute workout.

All good things.

But the scale says otherwise.  I am holding onto the weight from the cruise (and to be honest, I wasn’t great in the weeks following the cruise) and trying really hard to get back with it.

I still would like to lose some weight to feel better and be, well, smaller.  But I’m trying to see the forward momentum even if it has setbacks.

I tried a couple new things.  I had tried to go keto again, and that just wasn’t working for me.  It did before.  I lost my 30-40 lbs on it over a year.  But I wasn’t able to stick with it.  I tried Noom- a weight loss/psychology app.  That also wasn’t working for me.  So I’m back with something I know works- just tracking and calorie counting.

My difficulty comes in just consistently making decisions that push me toward my goal instead of having too many off meals and off days that set me back.  I’d love to lose these 5-10 lbs of gain, and then another 10-20.  But I’m also trying SO HARD to not be solely focused on the scale. It’s a delicate balance. I feel better when I’m devoted to moving my body and not eating crap.

And I just want to feel strong, capable and healthy. I’m getting there.

What My Weight Loss Has Looked Like

What My Weight Loss Has Looked Like

I’ve lost 20 pounds in the last year.

You could say I’ve only lost 20 pounds in the last year. Or you could say Wow! I’ve lost 20 whole pounds in the last year!

I had lost 20 pounds in the year before that (I’m a slow loser, I suppose).

And there was a long period of no change….but I’m losing.

I’m doing things to make change. I’m working on myself.  I’m working out.  I’m making healthy choices (some of the time. more often than not).

Here’s my chart from MyFitnessPal.  Each line is 10 lbs. This is the last year.

2018-10-02 15_55_58-Free Calorie Counter, Diet & Exercise Journal _

I’d like to lose another 20 lbs. And I sure wish it would happen faster than the next year, but I’m going to finish. I always quit before I finish.

But this time, it’s been a long process, so it’s become more of a lifestyle than it ever has before. To be really honest.  The slow losing has been annoying, but it’s been helpful because I’ve had to focus on the process and goals there (like getting 16 kickboxing workouts in a month, for example) rather than the pounds lost.

Here’s to seeing that line keep going down! And losing this last 20 pounds, in whatever time frame it takes!



So last May I started making a change.  I started eating low carb/keto and started working out at 9Round.  It’s been 11 months.

I’ve made GREAT progress.  I’ve lost 35 lbs so far, and I’ve come so far with my fitness.  The workouts are still hard because the intensity is getting harder, but I can do real pushups and I can do burpees for 3 minutes.

But in the last 5 weeks, my weight has stalled.  I’ve given great effort, been motivated and had fantastic willpower, but no change.  And while I did find eating keto VERY easy and fulfilling (and not all-mind-consuming like some other things I’ve done in the past), and while it did make me feel great (mentally, physically), my body has gotten used to it.

I still want to lose 25 more pounds.  I want to see progress for all of this effort.

So I pivoted. I quit keto and started Weight Watchers (with only one little day indulging in between).  I signed up for 3 months and am excited to see where this can take me. The scale is already moving.

Not going to lie. It’s weird going to a new way of eating after 11 months. Keto became second nature.  It’s low carb, but also high fat.  Where Weight Watchers is more protein and low fat focused, and carbs like fruit and whole grains are free or lower points.  It’s strange to pack fruit in my lunchbox at work. I hadn’t really eaten much fruit in 11 months!  And it’s weird to me that butter is off limits basically now, since it was a BIG part of keto. But I’m flexible and adaptable and learning quickly.

I’m going to be keeping up with my progress on Instagram – so follow along if you’re interested.  My weigh in days will be Mondays, and I plan on posting weekly there with updates, since a lot of my followers expressed interest in this WW journey.

Here’s to moving forward and being flexible enough to change.

Halfway There

Halfway There

I’ve lost 30 of my desired 60 pounds. I’m halfway to goal.

I started eating ketogenic (low carb/high fat/moderate protein) on May 8.  I started 9Round for kickboxing workouts on May 11.  Yes, some people may have lost weight faster, but I also gained muscle, enjoyed life and took a little “time off”, and I’m proud of what I’ve accomplished since May.

This picture was taken in April at Easter. I was singing for our worship service and, to be honest, was MORTIFIED at this photo our worship minister posted.  I immediately untagged myself (you know!) because I was so embarassed at how I looked.  I mean, I bought this dress, wore Spanx (you know!), and wore this dress in front of our entire congregation that morning singing a solo.  So seeing how I actually looked, I HATED it.

So instead of wallowing, I did something. I researched and started eating keto and found a workout that worked for me. It’s not magic. It’s making choices, sticking to plan more often than I’d like and working hard when I can. I often work out on my lunch break. It’s not hours at the gym. It’s 30 minutes. Or I work out when the grandmas pick Remi up from school early. Or I take her on Saturdays and she sits in her stroller with a sippy cup while I work out. It’s only 30 minutes – she’s fine.

It’s ordering things special “burger with no bun, please” or not bringing my favorite carby foods into the house. It’s choosing not to eat the donut at work (or sometimes, eating the donut but choosing not to blow the whole weekend and get back on track, or sometimes having a couple days off for my sanity).

So today I’m 30 pounds below my “found out I was pregnant weight.”  Like I posted before, I only gained about 25 lbs during pregnancy and lost that pretty quickly. For some context, this was me 30 lbs ago (early in 2016)- this was our pregnancy announcement picture. Yes, I was pregnant here, but hadn’t gained much weight yet.

And this is me now. 30 lbs down, and so much gained.


Now I can do real pushups. I do 30+ burpees in the 3 minutes between bells at 9Round. I can run. I can jump. I can throw a mean jab. I can shop at boutiques again. I am down like 3 pants sizes. I walk with my head held high because I’m proud of myself. Yes, I’d still like to lose 30 more lbs. I’m not done working on myself. But I’m glad to go into 2018 having made so much progress.

I don’t say this to “be an inspiration.”  My sweet friend Emilee told me I was inspiring on Facebook the other day when I checked into my workout. While that’s super sweet, I don’t mean for that vibe to come across.  I’m just trying to make myself and my life in line with my goals, trying to better myself in the time and effort I have. I say this to tell you if you’re not where you want (in career, in weight, in physical fitness, in whatever), you can change it. Start something. That’s all it takes!