My Post-Partum Weight Loss Journey

My Post-Partum Weight Loss Journey

I’m a year out from having my baby.

It’s been a journey this year.

I was lucky, thanks to gestational diabetes that I didn’t gain much weight during pregnancy. Maybe 20-25 lbs. total? I was down to pre-baby weight by 6 weeks post-partum. The issue was that I had gained like 40 lbs before I got pregnant, so I wasn’t where I wanted to be.

The best I’ve felt in the last few years (in Vegas)- side note: that’s not my lowest weight, which was 20 lbs less than this….but this was just like 2.5 months before getting pregnant:

IMG_1249.JPG

Plus 30-40 lbs. pre-baby (like this was just weeks before getting pregnant).  Life happens, ya know?  Holidays, life stress.  I eat my feelings (or I did, I’m working on that):

IMG_1992.JPG

So on we go.  I get pregnant, gain 25 lbs. or so and get back to the weight I was in December 2015. But if you’ve ever had a baby before, you might weigh the same, but things are….different. Things move around. They are shaped differently. They hang differently. ha!

I wasn’t happy.

I tried losing some weight just making better food choices. I tried doing some at-home workouts.

I lost maybe 8 lbs and bounced around.

This was me in May.  I think I had lost maybe 5-8 lbs. here.  But I felt tired. I felt bloated. I felt weak:

In May, I decided to make a change. I wanted more energy. I wanted more of my clothes to fit. I wanted to look better.

I joined a kickboxing gym called 9Round. They are a franchise and have locations across the country. They are 30-minute boxing based circuit workouts. I went initially because I liked the 30 minute format, but now I love the people and the workouts.

I also started eating low-carb/ketogenic. I am not hardcore keto tracking macros, but I lean a little more on the keto carb limit (around 20-25 net carbs a day).

I started losing some weight. I had lost like 10 pounds and felt comfortable enough wearing shorts on the 4th of July.

I lost 15 pounds and was feeling pretty snazzy some days. This was me and my friend Kacee in Tulsa on a mom’s night out. 

I lost 20 lbs and felt confident enough to wear a 2 piece swimsuit at the beach. It’s not where I want to be, but I am working hard and I don’t want to hide. I could have cropped out my legs to hide it. But I didn’t. Yes, I’ve got cellulite. But, I’ll honest, when I weighed 40 lbs less, I had dimpled legs. So that’s not gonna stop be from jumping into the ocean with my baby.

So I’ve hit some milestones. I’ve lost 25 lbs. I’m now under 200 lbs. I can do a real push up. I feel more confident. But I’m not done.

22279396_10100160617069723_7330719010015217664_n

I have several goals. I want to continue on this way of eating to lose 35 more pounds (maybe more, but my initial goal is 35 more). I am sticking with 9Round. I want to hit my 100th workout by the end of 2017. I want to make time for myself because working out makes me feel good. I want to eat healthier because I have fewer headaches, more energy and less inflammation. I want to be the best me.

Stay tuned to see where I go. 🙂


4 weeks postpartum 

4 weeks postpartum 

Well here we are. I had a baby 4 weeks ago. When I was pregnant, I wondered what postpartum recovery would be like. It seemed like most people didn’t talk about it. So I’m talking about it.

I actually feel like I recovered pretty quickly. I wanted to get up and walk the day after giving birth.

I also didn’t gain a ton of weight- about 25 pounds.

I had a pretty normal vaginal delivery. While it was long, it was standard- epidural, not a ton of pushing, not a ton of trauma.

I didn’t have much pain. My back hurt after delivery (and to be honest, it isn’t totally back to normal yet), and my lady parts needed some ice for a few days. Some of my postpartum must haves were Earth Mama Angel Baby New Mama Bottom Spray and their Natural Nipple Balm.

When we got home, I tried to get outside every chance I could.  I knew the walking, the fresh air and the sunshine would do me well.

I tried to just eat well- without too many bad snacks.  I had eaten well from the gestational diabetes diet…so I didn’t want to throw myself back into junk food.

Thanks to all of that, I’m down to prebaby weight at 4 weeks.

I was SO READY to get back into my regular clothes.  I have a great closet full of clothes I haven’t worn all year. I was ready to box up my maternity clothes. And that’s what I’ve done. From work clothes, summer casual clothes, swimwear, workout clothes, pajamas…it’s all in this box. We think we are a one kid family, but just in case God has other plans, I’m not getting rid of this stuff just yet. To the barn it goes!

So once i get cleared to work out again (I feel up to it, but I’m not doing anything without my doctor’s approval),  I will go back to my Beachbody workouts at home. I’m gonna start with Country Heat!

So here I am. Back to prebaby weight. Here’s to getting back to where I was the summer before…I was feeling good then!


My Journey: Establish Good Habits

My Journey: Establish Good Habits

Thank you all so much for the support and positive feedback on my post last week. Because of your encouragement and your interest, I’m going to share some steps through this journey.

Like I said, I don’t have a “plan” in terms of a distinct eating plan or anything like that.  But I can see some steps to take that will help me to be healthier and happier.

Like I’ve said before, I don’t have a “goal weight” in mind- just wanting to get back to taking care of myself out of love for myself.

One way I do that is by being active. I do teach Zumba and I have for years.  It’s great activity, but it also sometimes feels like a job and not so much like being active “for me,” if that makes sense.  So I know I have to put forth the effort to move more.  I feel better when I do.  I feel less stressed, I sleep better.  I even eat better as a result of putting in the work.  So here’s my first step: establishing the habit of being more active.

It can be difficult to be active while it’s so cold outside, but I have done it before.   I remember even going on a run when there was snow on the ground! One way I’m going to avoid using the weather as an excuse is to try and establish a morning workout habit. That’s my first step.

I’m used to setting the alarm for 4:45- but lately I’ve been using my mornings for housework, Bible study, and playing with the dogs.  I’m going to switch to working out and reading by Bible (that’s a habit I don’t want to replace with a workout!).

My plan is to start a bit easier, with a Leslie Sansone walking DVD and some weights.  Over Christmas break from Zumba (I get two weeks off), my plan is to amp it up with some 21 Day Fix or 30 Day Shred DVDs. When it’s nice outside, I might walk the dogs or go for a wog (walking/jog). Either way, my first step is to be much more intentional about being active.


If you’re working towards a change, what’s your first step?


Always Starting Over

Always Starting Over

A couple years ago when we were in New York, we saw If/Then the Musical.  The big song in this show is called “Always Starting Over,” and it was so powerful with the legendary Idina Menzel singing it.

Some favorite lyrics say:

Am I always starting over in a brand new story? Am I always back at one after all I’ve done?

Am I always starting over-

Well…I’m in an “always starting over” spot. I was talking to my friend Holly about this, and how hard it’s been to hit publish because it makes me feel like a failure who is back at square one.  But, this is my space.  These are my thoughts.  This is my journey.  And to be honest, I want the freedom to share here.  So judge me if you must…but I’m being real here.

I’m starting over, at least with my weight. It’s been an on-again-off-again struggle for most of my life.

But I’m currently at my highest adult weight. Ever. I’m not comfortable sharing a number, but let’s say I’m not proud of it.

It’s been ongoing for a while.

I had it all together before.  I lost 40 pounds.  I kept it off for a while. I was able to make good choices, workout, eat treats in moderation.  I was on cloud 9. I thought I had it “under control” but old habits die hard.  And triggers get pulled, and things spiral out of control.

Then back the weight came (and then a bit more).  At first it was 10 pounds while I was stressed from Tyler selling his businesses and spending some time not working.

Then it was 5 pounds from drinking extra wine while my Father-in-Law lived with us for a summer (hey, I had to cope somehow!).

Then it was 10 pounds of mindless eating while Tyler was in the police academy and training late nights.

Then it was emotional eating when Gram was sick, and then when she died.

And suffice it to say, I’m not taking care of myself.

Old, bad habits have returned. I’ve resorted to unhealthy mental patterns.  I’m making poor choices. And worst of all, I’m beating myself up over it.

I tried climbing out of this place.  I tried reading books.  I tried meal plans.  I actually had a great month doing the Whole 30 back in September, but that all came crashing down hard.

I decided I needed more help- and I’ve started some therapy.  To deal with my anxiety, my emotions, my bad habits and to get myself in a better place.

I’ve had a couple of sessions, and I’m already hopeful.  I’m not 100% back on the wagon, so to speak, but I’m hopeful that I will get there.

I’m starting over. Again. Tomorrow I’m stepping on the scale, writing down the number, and focusing on good choices.  I don’t need to be perfect.  I don’t have a goal in mind. I want to make healthy choices, feel good, and feel good about myself.  I want to be kind to myself again.  I want to be proud of myself again.

I don’t know how regularly I will post about this struggle (give me feedback if you’re interested in hearing more as I journey), but I wanted to get it out there that I’m in this place, seeking help, and starting over. I may never weigh the glorious 160 I did a few years ago.  That sure did feel good.  But more than vanity, I am on this journey to be in a good mental space and take good care of myself.

In the words of Liz in If/Then, “My new life starts right now!”