Friday Five: Five Crappy Things

Friday Five: Five Crappy Things

This week hasn’t been awesome.  To be honest, four days this week have involved crying.  My eyes feel puffy, I have a headache, and I’ve used a whole box of Kleenexes (I’m the snot queen when crying).  Not to be a downer…but this is life.  And I’m going to get some things out there (and document this stinky week so that later I can see God’s hand in making these crummy things into good things).

1. Alzheimer’s.  We had a rough day dealing with dad’s Alzheimer’s.  He’s doing great mostly, but sometimes things happen.  We are trying to manage it better, and we are reaching out for resources.  But there was an ugly day.

2. Tyler’s car.  When I got the call that he hit the deer, I cried.  Mostly because he was ok and I was thankful.  But I also freaked about him being without a car/paying the deductible and shed some tears (emotions beget emotions for me.  The tears come easy once I’ve been to cry-land.)

3. Tyler got offered the police job.  After last year when he tested (FOR MONTHS), he was ranked on their list.  They made it to his number and he got the call.  Which is GREAT.  He’s so excited to start this new journey…but I have fears.  I have fears of him being in danger.  I have fears of the unknown with scheduling/how life will be.  I have fears about this.  Yes, I’m excited, but I’m also worried.  And since I’m riding the crying train, I cried about that too.

4. Because of this job, we are having to cancel our Vegas trip.  Which is SO disappointing.  We’ve saved for years, planned, and booked it.  I’m disappointed we won’t get to have that trip together for a year (while he earns vacation time), I won’t get to see Britney Spears (the source of most of the crying…I was SO excited about that), I won’t get to visit the Grand Canyon.  I won’t get to do any of it with him.

5. We are having to PAY MONEY to cancel the trip we don’t get to go on.  Flights are $200 each to cancel. Ouch.  And we are completely losing one night of the hotel.  And we have the Britney Spears tickets to try and sell, otherwise we lose that money.  I’m trying to find someone who might want to take a weekend trip with me to Vegas to see the show (so I can still see it and not lose the tickets) but it’s tough finding a friend with the extra cash/time to go. So yeah.

I know all of this has a purpose, it could be worse, etc….but for this week, I’ve cried about it.  As The Fault in Our Stars said, “Pain demands to be felt.”  And I felt it.  But I’m hoping this weekend is full of fun and makes up for it.


Comments

  1. Ugh, I’m so sorry, friend. 🙁 Every one of those things is definitely stressful and cry-worthy!! I hope you’re able to resolve all of the Vegas stuff…having to pay to miss a vacation is beyond terrible!!!

  2. Oh Brittney, i am so sorry my friend. I’ve been to cry-land this week too just over things that i can’t control. I try to remember that it is in God’s hands, but that is so hard for me. Just know i am praying for you. For you and tyler, and for your mom and dad. i’m so thankful your parents are closer to you now. sometimes you just need your mom.

  3. I’m here for you. I understand the police thing just a little bit 😉 and yes, it can get the best of you sometimes, especially in the beginning with all of the unknowns. I promise to listen and reassure you and validate your feelings as a police wife. (I’ll try not to tell you to put your big girl panties on, but no promises, because I’ve been at it for a looooong time.) There are a lot of good resources that I’ll send your way. Love and prayers for all you’ve been through this week.

  4. I am so sorry to hear about your Dad. My grandfather was diagnosed 3 and a half years ago with Alzheimer’s and it has been a rough journey for our entire family. The one thing I always tell myself is he loves me and he knows I love him even though he doesn’t remember me. I will be praying for your family.

  5. hey girl, so sorry about your week. hoping things get better for you. will be praying God provides comfort and peace. i read the book “Still Alice” about a lady with early on-set alzheimer’s and it was really helpful in understanding what takes place. love to you and here’s to a better week!

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