Weigh in Wednesday (on a Tuesday): Reality Check

Weigh in Wednesday (on a Tuesday): Reality Check

I don’t usually do Weigh in Wednesday (many other bloggers do).  I really don’t like the idea of posting my weight online.

Well, the time has come to be courageous, honest, and hold myself accountable.

See, I’ve been pretty fed up with weight loss lately.  Between being on this dadgum journey for WAY too long (2+ years!), to just hating the idea that I can’t be “like everyone else” and relax a little….I was over it.

Well, “over it” somehow equaled my pants feeling a bit tight, me feeling a little squishy.  It’s not good.

I weighed myself this morning and it wasn’t pretty.  In fact, it made me want to vomit.

See, in December, I got down to 161 (meaning I had lost about 50 pounds total).  But somehow (which I know isn’t just my story….many of you know what I’m talking about) between the holidays, vacation, weekends with friends, dinners out….I am up. I thought I was sitting pretty around 165 (I hadn’t weighed in a while).  But nope.  In fact, (ohmygodIcan’tbelieveI’mabouttopostmyweightonline….breathe, breathe), I’m 178 this morning.

Let me quote from my favorite musical Rent: “How did we get here? How the hell?”

Well, while I’ve been doing Zumba, I’ve definitely slacked off on bootcamp and running.  And I’ve not been tracking my food.  And I’ve been eating out (and eating like a piglet, cleaning my plate), and I’ve eaten pieces of cake at work….and grabbed bites of stuff at home….and all of that means I’ve gained.

Because of my sensitive history with weight loss, I gain easily. Once your body knows what 210 feels like, it wants to go back there. It isn’t “fair” but I can’t let this go any further.

So, in an effort to be accountable (and be 100% overwhelmed at the thought of posting my weight online) I’m going to do Weigh in Wednesdays until I reach back to 160 (and maybe even on to my goal of 150).

I know maybe for you as readers, that isn’t fun to read.  But for me, I need to do it.  I have to do it.  I have to lose this weight for my health and honestly, for my self-esteem.  I don’t feel strong or beautiful like I did at a little slimmer weight.

This week is a little off because it’s my birthday tomorrow (hence the weigh in today….nobody wants to be sad about their weight on their birthday).  But instead of going 100% nuts, I’m going to eat “on plan” except for my cake tomorrow.  And this weekend in St. Louis, I’m going to attempt to enjoy myself while not going crazy.

I’ve lost weight before, and I can do it again. I just have to put my mind to it.  And I hope you don’t mind me sharing this journey with you.  Because, I promise you, this is scary as all-get-out to be so transparent.

What is my plan?   Well this week: don’t blow it.  Next week, I’m going back to strict clean eating (no dairy, no flour, no added sugar) at least for a couple weeks to reign it all in.  I’m going to commit to 2 runs and 2 bootcamps (on top of Zumba).  Because I know that hard work and eating right works.

So, here goes. Thanks for being supportive and being here for me.

PS.  On a lighter note, I would love if you would Tweet this (it’s asking Hanson to play a song for my birthday this weekend!)


Comments

  1. Good for you for jumping back on the wagon. You can do it!!!

  2. Girl you can do it!!!!! You have the will power to do it and that makes things different 🙂

  3. I can’t wait to see your progress!

  4. You can definitely do it, and happy (almost) birthday! 🙂

    The Grass Skirt

  5. I love reading about your accomplishments in this area. You are an ispiration! I don’t struggle with weight per se but we all need inspirition in all areas of life. Keep up the good work!

  6. Weight loss can be so exciting and so depressing depending on the loss/gain ratio. Know that you have definitely been an inspiration for me throughout my process, and you will continue to be. Especially seeing you be so honest with your struggles and feelings. You got this, girl 🙂

  7. You are such an inspiration to me!! I’ve been on a crazy weight loss/gain cycle since I’ve had my second baby three months ago. I’m doing Weight Watchers right now, which makes me way too obsessed with a scale, but it really is so good to track what you’re eating. Good luck on your upcoming weeks of clean eating and extra exercise!!

    • Thank you so much! I can’t imagine doing all of this with two kiddos – YOU are the inspiration! Hoping to have good reports coming up. 🙂

  8. You inspire me! I am working my tail off doing insanity and I have lost like 2 lbs, but I am losing inches. My goal is 145 and I have like 45 lbs to lose to get there. I may start doing weigh in Wednesday too! Keep it up girl!

    • Aw Jenna- you are rocking it! 2 pounds is GREAT…but those changes in your body are better! I’d love for you to join me on Weigh in Wednesdays (not that it’s my idea in the first place!) but putting it out there has made me feel super accountable! We can do it. Slow and steady girl!

  9. You got this girl! Don’t worry about what your readers think about your posts. We’re all supportive and if they don’t want to read it, they can skip that post. I am thinking of joining as well, because I need to hold myself accountable!!

    P.s. happy birthday! We’re almost bday buddies – I’m on Thursday!

  10. Good for you for holding yourself accountable, Brittney 🙂 I’m right there with you, losing 10 lbs again that I hoped was gone for good. You can do this!!!

  11. I think that posting will hold you that much more accountable and others do appreciate honesty and openness. You can do it girl, one day at a time. 🙂 I’m cheering for you!

  12. wow! i so admire you for your honesty and determination! hoping to work out daily this summer each morning..You can do this and I can too!!

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